New Year, new hope, new responsibilities

hei dude, sekarang udah 2010 guys.
gw mau cerita dikit tentang hal-hal yang pengen gw wujudin di tahun 2010, ada beberapa harapan yang pengen banget gw wujudin di tahun ini, read it guys:

1. make my parents proud of me, HARUS!
2. kuliah semakin lancar, IP bagus, kegiatan seimbang.
3. selalu deket sama orang yang gw sayang dan orang yang sayang sama gw, Allah, orang tua, temen-temen dan (maybe) pacar.
4. BE A BETTER WOMAN, gw harus jadi pribadi yang lebih baik.

semoga aja tahun 2010 semua menjadi lebih baik, Indonesia ga banyak bencana lagi, orang-orang semakin deket sama tuhannya termasuk gw, everything must be better.

apa sih

hari ini tanggal 28 des, seminggu lagi gw uas, trus masuk semester 4.
ga nyangka!!

damn bayangin pas ga duduk dari jam setengah 11 siang sampe setengah 7 malem!
tempos pant*t gw! sumpah!

udah ah ga penting banget gw nulis hahahaa

hi blog

apa kabar dengan blog gw?
udah lama banget banget banget gw ga ngblog lagi, terakhir cerita curhat "patah hati" gw yaa hahaha

what happen to me?

apparently I was wrong when I say my tears tonight was not much, in fact getting more and more tears tonight I spend, whether what I have in my mind, maybe I'm too much keep this feeling, but in fact I've loved so bad.
I cried tonight.
crying so hard, until I stop myself confused.
dizziness was already struck me, because crying did not stop.
stop Karla! please stop!

(not) ending

I'm sad, very sad, maybe this is the saddest experience after the death of my grandmother.
last night I had to write all the writing on my blog about me and my relationship with someone, I want to start something new with confidence, I want to maintain my relationship with trust.
but now, I can only read my article below with only a hope, I feel nothing, I feel like a fool.
I finished the relationship, because my own stupidity, I am a little sorry.
My tears come down again this time, maybe not too much than yesterday, it seemed like I was getting tired with the activities I cried and cried.

now I can only hope this decision is good and fair to me.
Karla hey, life is still long! you should use it!
live your future with your intentions, your best future is in your grasp itself kar!
maybe it's time to study, work and make my parents proud of me.
I am strong, I can go through this, I believe it.
This feeling is not a barrier for me, but it was enough to hinder me, I'm sure I can go through all this with my own self.
I HOPE.
271009, 20.20

just want to write

maybe now I can breathe, my problem is complete as I expected, although I had to shed tears AGAIN.
loving someone is not an easy thing for me, maybe it was a most difficult thing for me, when I love someone I will keep that feeling.
I know, when I began to love someone, I would be selfish, possessive possible, or even too protective, that's my ugliness.

My character does not believe, suspicious, stubborn, high prestige, not to be outdone and even pampered can make for my own peril.

in my current relationship, I met again with a man I love, maybe I was already too bad.
do not know what made me like that, that affection comes suddenly, without seeing how these people.
this one is the same guy with me, last child, a spoiled, headstrong, high prestige, and others.
only difference in lifestyle.

trust becomes a very important thing to him.
different from mine, which is very hard to believe with a guy (knowing I had been betrayed and it was very painful)
I often fight with this guy because of trust issues.
trust becomes a thorny issue for us.

now, I try to instill confidence back for him (and hopefully he can keep it)

271009, 00.03

just like a hoping

last night I just had a small problem affecting a very complicated, I am also confused about why can be tricky like that.
impact, my mood was very good changed to worst, it's going mad, even to sleep became very agitated. the anxiety that I finally fell asleep.
the gravity of what I was restless dreams brought to me and the results are very disappointing, it's a nightmare for me (hopefully not the same as reality)

now I got a little quiet, maybe because I had just met with my friend and a little storytelling.
I do not know what will happen later, but I really hope everything will come back fine.